Emotional Evolution

I have learned some meditation techniques to help me find inner peace. I imagine myself a small child alone and afraid. My adult self comes along and asked the boy if he'd like to go for a walk. We walk hand in hand. As an adult, I voice understanding and affirmation to the child. Eventually, I introduce the child to my higher power, Jesus Christ. Christ greets the boy with a huge smile and open arms. 

I have worked this meditation for several years now and have responded with a evolution of emotions. I balled as the instructor walked a group of people through the meditation for the first time. I felt pain. Don't get me wrong. I believe the meditation worked it's purpose as it helped to bring my suppressed emotions to the surface. 

I continued to practice this mediation regularly - at first daily and usually while laying in bed before sleep. It was a great way to end a day. My response changed considerably from sobbing to serenity. I continued to found peace in the arms of my loving savior. As I would crawl up in his lap, he would look down on me with loving eyes and a rather toothy smile. He was happy to see me again! I would curl up in his arms and find rest. 

I practiced this meditation early this morning. Everything was the same and my response changed once more. Rather than curling up in Jesus lap and feeling serenity, I SMILED when I looked into his eyes! I smiled. I felt not only serenity but also joy and pleasure. I was happy with myself and enjoyed being with my higher power. 

My emotional response to Christ's constant love has changed, beginning with pain and progressing to peace and joy.